I won’t lie for you. I won’t take the blame for Amber’s crime or your enabling. This is what happens when you treat people like resources instead of humans. You lose them. You’re being selfish. he cried, the old anger flaring up. “Yes,” I said, and the word tasted like honey. “I am being selfish. I am preserving myself, and I am finally, finally happy.
” I hung up. Then I blocked his number. I blocked Holly. I blocked Amber. I sat there as the sun dipped below the horizon, bathing the city in twilight. I had just destroyed my father’s business. I had just severed ties with my entire family, and I had never felt more alive. Six months have passed since I hung up that phone. Six months of silence.
I blocked their numbers, their emails, their social media accounts. I didn’t do it to punish them. I did it to protect the peace I had finally cultivated. But the world is small and news travels even across the Atlantic. I learned through a former colleague on LinkedIn that Jeffrey’s boutique firm took a massive hit.
Ryan Cooper didn’t just pull the pinnacle account. He told his network why. In business, trust is the only currency that matters. And my father had proven he couldn’t control his own assets, let alone anyone else’s. The revenue loss forced a restructuring. They had to downsize. And that downsizing had the exact effect I predicted.
With the family war chest depleted, the Amber subsidy finally dried up. They couldn’t afford to pay her rent anymore. They couldn’t afford to keep her as a pet. Last week, I saw a status update from a mutual cousin. Amber has a job, a real one. She is working as a receptionist at a dental office in Belleview. It isn’t glamorous. It isn’t the six-f figureure salary she felt entitled to, but it is hers.
The vacuum of competence worked. By removing myself, by refusing to be the crutch, I forced them to learn how to walk. It wasn’t cruel. It was the most necessary thing I ever did. They are struggling. Yes, they are likely miserable and blaming me for their misfortune. But they are functioning.
They are surviving without cannibalizing me. I sit now at a small iron table in the Alama district. The air smells of salt and grilled sardines. The waiter places a pastel dinata and a beika, a strong espresso in front of me. I take a bite of the pastry, the custard warm and sweet, the flakes of crust sticking to my lips. I am alone.
I have no emergency contacts listed in my phone. I have no family holidays on my calendar. I have no one calling me to fix their printer or pay their rent. For 32 years, I thought this kind of solitude would feel like a punishment. I thought it would feel like failure. Instead, I watch the tram rattle down the steep cobblestone street yellow against the blue sky, and I realize what it actually feels like.
It feels like victory. It feels like the first breath you take after stepping out of a room that was slowly running out of oxygen. I didn’t just survive my family. I outgrew them. I built a life that fits me, not a storage unit for their expectations. I take a sip of the coffee. It is bitter and perfect. I am selfish. I am solitary. I am free.
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