My mother was struggling to reconcile the daughter she thought she knew with this new reality.
“But why couldn’t you tell us anything? We’re your family.”
“Operational security,” I explained gently. “The nature of my work means that knowledge of my real position could potentially endanger operations or expose networks. The cover story was created and maintained by the program, not by my choice.”
“For twelve years,” my father challenged, the hurt beneath his question evident despite his military bearing. “Not one word of truth?”
“That’s the job, Dad,” I said simply. “You of all people should understand that some positions require complete compartmentalization.”
He fell silent, military discipline acknowledging what the father in him wanted to deny.
The main course arrived, providing another brief reprieve from the intensity of the conversation. As we began eating, Jack broke the tension with a short laugh.
“So… all those times I was bragging about my promotions and assignments…”
“You were talking to someone who was briefing the Joint Chiefs,” I finished with a small smile.
“God, I must have sounded like such an idiot,” he groaned.
“You didn’t,” I assured him. “Your accomplishments are real and significant. Different operational areas, different challenges.”
My mother set down her fork, her food barely touched.
“I keep thinking about all the things we said to you over the years—the disappointment we expressed, the judgments.”
“You didn’t know,” I said. “You couldn’t have.”
“But we should have trusted you,” she insisted, tears gathering. “We should have seen that there was more happening than what appeared on the surface. Instead, we just… wrote you off.”
The raw truth of her statement hung in the air. They had written me off, creating a narrative of the disappointing daughter that fit the limited information they had.
My father, always less comfortable with emotional displays, redirected slightly.
“Your upcoming promotion,” he said. “Admiral Wilson mentioned a briefing next month. Are you being considered for brigadier general?”
I confirmed quietly. “It’s not finalized yet.”
His eyebrows rose sharply.
“At your age?”
“That would be unusual,” I acknowledged. “The recommendation is based on the Tavos operation results. That’s all I can say about it.”
My mother wiped her eyes.
“And we wouldn’t have known about this either if today hadn’t happened.”
I hesitated, then admitted the truth.
“Probably not. The details, no. You might have eventually learned I was military, but specifics about rank and position would have remained classified.”
The meal continued with questions I could answer intermingled with ones I couldn’t. The boundaries of classified information remained even in this new openness, creating an imperfect but vastly improved communication. For the first time, my family was seeing the outline of my real life, even if many details remained in shadow.
After dinner, my parents invited me back to their home, a gesture that felt significant after years of emotional distance. In their living room, my mother disappeared briefly before returning with a dusty box.
“I kept these,” she said, setting it between us, “even though I didn’t understand why you’d want them.”
Inside were mementos from my Academy days—my midshipman’s cap, academic awards, photographs. Items that would have made no sense to preserve for someone who had supposedly failed out, yet she had kept them anyway.
“Some part of me never believed the story,” she admitted quietly. “It didn’t fit the daughter I raised, but I couldn’t imagine an alternative explanation.”
My father, after several drinks and hours of processing, had grown unusually reflective.
“I was hardest on you,” he acknowledged, military directness now applied to personal failing. “When we thought you’d washed out, I took it personally. Made it about my legacy rather than your path.”
“I understood,” I told him honestly. “And maintaining the cover story was part of my duty, even when it was difficult.”
“The concept resonates,” he said slowly, the idea of duty at the expense of being known by your own family settling heavily between us.
Jack, who had been listening quietly, finally spoke again.
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