I almost threw the letter away. But curiosity is a dangerous thing.
I opened it. It wasn’t a demand. It wasn’t a guilt trip.
I cannot undo what was said, he wrote. I followed your mother’s lead because it was easier than fighting her. That makes me a coward. You are my daughter. Emma is my granddaughter. I am sorry.
He didn’t ask for forgiveness. He didn’t ask for a visit. He just apologized.
I put the letter in a drawer. Maybe, in ten years, when Emma is grown, I’ll show it to her. Maybe not. Forgiveness is a gift, and I wasn’t in a giving mood just yet.
Christmas came again.
This time, there was no smell of nervous sweat and rum. There was the smell of hot cocoa and Rachel’s famous lasagna.
We were at Rachel’s house. Her living room was chaotic and loud and full of love.
“Okay, photo time!” Rachel’s husband announced.
I felt Emma stiffen beside me. The trauma of the piano was still there.
Rachel saw it, too. She walked over and knelt in front of Emma. “Emma, you’re the guest of honor. You go right in the middle.”
She placed Emma front and center, surrounded by smiling faces. Arms draped over shoulders. No gaps. No exclusions.
Click.
The photo captured Emma laughing, her head thrown back in pure joy.
Later that night, as I tucked Emma into bed, my phone buzzed. It was a text from an unknown number.
This is Todd. Jennifer and I are getting divorced. The twins miss Emma. Is there any chance… eventually… we could get coffee? I miss my sister.
I looked at my daughter, sleeping peacefully, safe from the people who had tried to make her feel small. I had burned the forest down, and from the ashes, a stronger, healthier garden had grown.
I typed back to Todd: I’ll think about it. Don’t contact me again unless I reach out first.
I turned off the light. We were a family of two, expanded by choice, not by blood. And we were whole.
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